As slowly I close my eyes

And sit quietly

A chill sweeps over me

As few memories slap coldly

In my palm

I dig my fingernails

In my mind flashing

Those unsaid tales

And I feel a jerk

With cold I shiver

I open my eyes

With a sudden quiver

I look back at my life

Faith completely shaken

Dragging the burden

Of few words unspoken

Some dreams vanquished

A road not taken

I know I am being crazy

I know I am being stupid

But I just want to let you know

That I care

When you are quite

And seem so lost and far away

I am at your side

Hoping, you would speak some day

Then, I just want to let you know

That I care

When you seem worried

And you are so angry, so cross

I try to cool you down

Hoping you wouldn’t remain so gross

Again, I just want to let you know

That I care

When you don’t answer back

When I say I love you

I know you are helpless

That it won’t be forever with you

I just want to let you know

That I will care, forever…

I look at the window

To watch the inky blue sky

Outside, there are clouds

With slight breeze that fly

I go back to those years

In the memory lane

And am back as small breeze

Steals inside and hits window pane

A small girl, I was then

Innocent and carefree

Running around in parks

And climbing up the guava tree

Now I see my hands

A small tear sits in peace

Heart once full of warm love

Softness now is at seize

I gently close my eyes

And try hard to memorize

The time was immensely precious

I possessed love as only prize

The sky has now turned grey

The sky that was once inky blue

The past that is now unreal

The time that is now true

When curtains in room shiver

And the moonlight gushes down the window

When the cool breeze tingle’s my face

And slowly I see the night grow

The secret desire comes over me

That makes me remember the sacred vow

When I recall the softened touch

And look into thoughts so profound

When I reconcile, lest is such

And the grace that litters around

The secret desire comes over me

That makes me fraternize feelings so sound

When I feel the warmth so close

And those moments completely savoured

When there is slightest twinge and twirl

And proceeding those dearings manoeuvred

The secret desire comes over me

To take procession quickly endeavoured

Please do not linger upon shadows of those days

When we were together, I used to say always

The thought of being parted, will haunt me to grave

That out of my whole life, single moment I couldn’t save

What is my destiny, I do not know

I’ll dwell along quietly, nothing to show

My secret turmoil may have all answers

Maybe in my laughter, and maybe in my tears

We could have chosen, altogether different paths

How can such gloom, anyone so close bequeaths

My mind may deny that sacred embrace

But heart is unable to fill that empty space

Here I solicit for the sake of those days

Let me dwell along quietly, with my silent ways